*Clears throat. Takes breath.* Ok, go.

I have trouble writing personally on this blog. I have a private nature that is juxtaposed with a very outgoing personality. I love sharing all the great things that happen in my life or that I stumble upon in my reading. I love image hunting at 3am and figuring out (sometimes in my sleep) what words/verse/quote/poem to put with what picture. I know it seems small, but it really does make me exceptionally happy to post on this blog. It's a wonderful creative outlet for me.

So why can't I seem to get it together and start writing more of my actual life on here? Maybe it's writing all day for a living that takes some of the zazz out of my own writing. Writing 8 hours a day professionally leaves little time and effort left for "fun" writing. Maybe it's feeling like I can hide behind the beautiful pictures and words that I put up here rather than show you the more vulnerable real pictures and words of my life. Hmmm....I have been trying to figure this out ever since I started posting on here. Maybe it's the convenience? It's always easier to post quips and short stories, especially in this fast paced, give-it-to-me-quick-or-I'll-have-an-aneurysm world, rather than really invest in sitting down to write an entire blog post. It's like choosing to read a book instead of surfing the Internet for the synopsis. Or maybe it's that my quiet, private side really is the dominant-- I don't want strangers or even friends sometimes, knowing things about me that I'm not choosing to tell them personally. Ok, whatever. It doesn't really matter anymore-- the point is, I want to write more and I'm going to do it.

I really do love my life. I really am the happiest I've ever been. And it's a happiness that has come from myself, finally, so it's not going anywhere. :) I want to share my life. I want to share my thoughts-- and if you know me, you know I've got a lot of those!

I have said it before on here, I am saying it again now-- I am really going to try this time to remedy the lack of my actual self on this blog!

Ok, I am done shouting at myself now.